Note*: I haven't been on Deviantart in FOREVER, so I basically just deleted the...2,500 deviantwatch messages I had. SO if you are very proud of something or want me to peak at your gallery, leave a message at the end of this journal entry and I'll check you out. If not, I'll be checking all of your upcoming deviations as they come.

I'm so sorry for not being on here in a while. I tend to get caught up in nothingness and then return to myself around winter, and now that winter is approaching I can almost feel this creative energy being pushed toward me.

I've even finally broken my writers block, having just recently written the song "atmosphere" and the upcoming deviation (which is a monologue performance piece that may or may not be performed) "Clouds". Everything else I've updated is old material.

I really want to get out and go on a little photographic journey soon or something, as I'm so sick of shooting the same things around me. I need to take an adventure somewhere. The next seminally nice day we have I just may take a little walk through the woods somewhere...or something. Ryan and I did that about a week ago and it was quite nice, only I didn't have my camera. But I should've.

I've been working hard in my Drama 12 class. I just recently directed a Remembrance Day piece with Courtney. I was very pleased today when we recieved feedback and my creative ideas were praised by the audience. It made me feel a little more self-assured. I was in an excellent mood today, actually. We talked about the play we watched last Thursday. You may be familiar with it. It's called "Shape of a Girl". Anyway, it's an excelent one woman show and we had an excelent conversation about it.

This past Friday I had a bit of a gathering at my house with a few friends. I felt bad because Mark didn't know anyone but me, jack, and Meachy, but I think it went well anyway. Ryan left early, but Meachy, Dylan, and Stephanie stayed until about 4AM, which was hilarious.

On Sunday I went over to Jack's house (best friend's boyfriend) and we had a good time. Mark was there as well and they're both drummers. Mark played drums and he was actually really excellent. I thought he had been playing for at least a year or two, but he had actually only been playing since August sometime. He hasn't even taken lessons. That's absolutely insane. O.o Those musicians, huh? He plays nearly everything. It's vair vair cool.

Hmm...also...

Sort of getting into painting? Sketching? I may post some things in scraps and such...or maybe in my gallery, who knows? Depends how things turn out.

Ooer. A few weeks ago I had an audition for West Side Story and it was pretty terrifying. I hadn't sung before solo on stage for people, but aparently I did well. I hope I did. I did it half as good as I could've because I was so incredibly nervous.

I'm not doing so excelent in my Global History class, but I suppose I'll just need to work harder. I really need to get into a decent university.

And I'm hardly sure of what exactly I want to pursue. I may do DAL theatre, but I always thought journalism would be interesting. But then again I'd love to do and english or Literature major...and do some creative writing stuff. And then again, going to art school may be fantastic as well. Photography would be really amazing, I think.

I'm just not completely sure of what I want to do with my life.

It's quite uncomfortable for me. I know I have to make a living, but if I have to do some shitty job just for survival I really think I'd just kill myself. I'd rather NOT survive.

Anyway, that's my life in a nutshell right now. I hope to hear from you all.

Have an EXCELLENT week. :-D